So…I figured what better way to start a blog than to start with my testimony of salvation. Here it is:
I grew up never feeling any lack, never noticing what I didn’t have, never being abused, I was well taken care of. My mother did a magnificent job raising me! 🙂 With that being said, I remember the first time I realized that maybe I was lacking something….my father. It was a time in the fifth grade and I was talking to a schoolmate who mentioned her mother and father doing something together. Although it shouldn’t’ve shocked me, it did! I asked with my eyebrows raised, “you stay at home with your mother AND father?” Her response was slow…not understanding why I was surprised, “Uh yes…”. That was the first time I remember feeling lack and saying to myself, “I want that(a father)”. Afterwards, I went on with my day without thinking too much about it because it was my reality to not have a two parent home. Now that I’m looking back, I see thats where it began. The search… the search for that validation and love that can only be given by a father. Did I have loving uncles? Was my grandad an amazing man? Were there good men in my life? Absolutely! There is just something special about a father.
Fast forward years later….I had boyfriends, partied, and did the “typical” things that teenagers and young adults did in my circle. “The cycle” was a part of living! Always have a boyfriend. Just be sure to take care of business! I went to school, had a job, had goals, so everything should’ve worked out great! I had a relationship that lasted six years and he was definitely the one for me! 🙂 We had been through ups, downs and around the corners but we were still making it work(soul tied). Then one day during the “normal”, I was driving to meet up with the rest of the girls for more drinks and to go to the club and my life changed unexpectedly. I heard a small voice from the inside over the intoxication and blaring music asking, “If you leave here today where would you go?”. I knew in that moment that I was hearing from God because the words were soft but pierced the very core of my drunk being. I turned the music up, hit the gas pedal a little harder, and told myself I was indeed crazy! Although Jesus didn’t have to repeat the question, it resonated in my heart until I had to acknowledge it. The answer to that question was hell. I knew I wasn’t living the life that God ordained for me even though I didn’t really know who God was. The way i was living couldn’t be all life had to offer. After God spoke to me, slowly but surely He led me to Himself through a series of more encounters through people. I begin going to church, even if I had a hangover and all my friends weren’t going. It was something drawing me that I could not explain, so I told my boyfriend! Surely we would do this thing together! We were going to get married and live for God! The transformation was for both of us!!! YES! I was geeked!
That was not the plan of the Lord. I begin to live a torn life with the Holy Spirit tugging me one way but my flesh tugging me another. After it was too much to bear, I made a decision to give God all of me. This was my commitment: I’m going to try this God thing all the way but if it doesn’t work Im going back! I can imagine now that God was up for the challenge! Five years later, here I am still holding on to the Words of the Lord. Daily I awake to give the Lord all of me and He continues to be patient with me, never leaving or forsaking me! What a good God I/we serve!!
I am forever grateful for The Journey that led me to Christ and The Journey that I am still on until the day Christ returns!
I encourage you to join this journey in which you will obtain peace that you’ll NEVER find ANYWHERE else, this journey in which your wounds will be healed, this journey in which life will be illuminated and things will begin to make sense, this journey that does not have to be done alone because God is there every step of the way, this journey in which you have had the victory before the battle even started…this journey that is so worth it and more!!! Salvation and eternity is real!
Can I say another thing??
No matter what…God is still God.
The picture at the top is from the funeral home that assisted in the burial of my grandfather this year in March. It was perfect to me because it described this blog of over 800 words in one illustration.